The problem with pursuing perfection

Hi my name is Andrea and I’m recovering perfectionist. Just kidding. But in all seriousness I often joke about the fact that I’m a perfectionistic overachiever.

Within the equine world, dressage riders are often known for being the detail-oriented  perfectionists. And similar things are often said about dietitians within the healthcare setting.

I once identified as a perfectionist but I am working onnchangin that particularly when it comes to horses

In the past I think those stereotypes are something that I’ve embraced. I’ve worn  these labels almost as a badge of honour. The irony of this I think it’s probably my desire for perfection that’s hampered my growth the most.

You could be forgiven for thinking this sounds counter intuitive. Surely the pursuit of perfection is central to the sport of dressage? Bare with me whilst I explain what I mean.

The idea of perfectionism comes with such an arrogant assumption that you could ever be perfect at something. Whereas that moment when you accept that you are not perfect at all and in fact the idea that you even judge yourself by the idea of something being perfect, which is an unrealistic expectation in the first place. Then you can forgive yourself and try a few new things. And I think, be a better person.

Will Anderson on the Wilosophy with Wil Anderson podcast

In being a so-called perfectionist, in pursuing perfection I have at times placed enormous amount of pressure on myself. Pressure to be performing at a certain level. Pressure to be achieving certain results. Pressure to always be learning the next thing. Pressure to be better each and every single ride.

Just like in life, everything is rarely perfect, pursing progress is a far better option.

And while some degree of that mindset is probably required for growth, too much of it can be paralysing. While I wouldn’t say I was paralysed, I can now see that the pressure I was placing myself under was holding me back because it was too much.

In the past when I faced a challenge or got stuck, I would keep trying the same old thing, because I  was too afraid to try something different. I was afraid of getting it wrong and ruining my horse. I was afraid that I would make things worse.

And maybe all of those things are fine if you have the luxury of having a coach with you every second of every ride. But during my time in Mackay I was lucky to get a lesson every couple of months. That meant a lot of time riding on my own. A lot of time coming up against challenges. And quite frankly a lot more time than I’d like to admit getting frustrated and stuck.

I've recently experienced some big changes in my mindset which has allowed me to grow significantly as a horse person

So how do you disentangle yourself from the pursuit of perfection? I can’t tell you what will work for you, but I can share my experience in the hope that it might give you a little more insight into how you can start to refocus from perfection to progress – whatever that looks like in your journey.

They say that the first step to recovery is admitting that you have a problem.

For me I knew that I was stuck and I knew that I was afraid to try different things but I didn’t actually realise that it was this perfection that was at the root of this fear.

Working with Dani from Dressage Plus has helped so much with managing performance nerves and optimising my mindset to help me get the best out of Nonie and myself
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Working with the performance coach has been a game-changer for me. Those of you who’ve been following along for a while, will be aware that I first started working with Dani Pooles from Dressage Plus when I was ready to start tackling my competition nerves.

With my competition nerves now largely under control/manageable, I’ve been able to focus on other aspects of mindset. During a session with Dani last week it was like a light flicked on and I suddenly realised that it was the pursuit of perfection that was behind the pressure I had been putting on myself.

Have you ever considered how the pursuit of perfection may actually be getting in the way of your growth as a rider?

The other piece of the puzzle was that the  coach I’m working with, Gary Lung, was telling me how the riders he watched over in the states would ‘play’ with the higher-level movements with their horses. He explained how for instance, once the canter was ready, play with a couple of flying changes and then leave them be. Or how you might start to introduced the short steps play with that for a little bit put it away for a little bit.

As the pressure has been lifted as we’ve started to make more consistent progress over the last few months and I’ve developed a little more confidence that I can actually feel when Nonie gives me work that is correct or at least better. And consequently I found myself trying things differently when what I was doing wasn’t working. For example, I’ve found myself playing with a little feeling of short steps to bring her withers up in the walk and suddenly we have a half halt!

The look you give your horse when you know that they are sheer perfection